to my dear bestfriend jess

(to dear jess, hopee you read this).

I thought about you today, it brought me to tearswhen i relised how much i missed you. my amazing bestfriend. Its your formal tonight and you are gonna look beautiful, drop dead gorgeous, and i am sorry and so disapointed i miss seeing you get your photos. Lately ive felt like i havent been there enough, you've help pull me through some tough times, times when i was at rock bottom and you've had me in endless smiles and laughing until my stomach hurts.
Your the one person i can say i honestly trust, with everything, with all. Your an amazing girl inside and out and i would be lost without you.
I wanted to ring you tonight and vent this all to you, but you'll be dancing the night away and creating endless memories.
we need a day, a sleepover, a little holiday trip, a dance off, an adventure, a movie night: or all of these thing because i miss you, so much. And it feels like a million years since i had a proper conversation with you or saw you for that matter..
Im in tears writing this, cause i feel like somethings are changing and i hate not having my daily chats or spending my day consumed of laughter with you. Or making up silly dances and having endless rambles and dnms.
Jess Thomo, pretty much 'bestfriend' sums it up :).

oh i never got any messages about gundy :S funnyly enough and i had credit then, now i dont.. :( when i get credit expect a text okay!

ILY :) x

I wrote a poem to you today..

I wrote a poem to you today,
i didnt like it so i through it away.

I wonder where, i wonder how,
its so different now.

I remember the days when you were here,
almost every time in brings me to tears.

I wish how things could be the same,
all thats left is memories and a picture in a frame.

I wish i could of help and change what happened..

emotions.

Doesnt it amaze you how some people just couldnt care, until the tears start rolling down your cheeks.
and how other people can sense something up and they are their in a heartbeat.

Just a thought..

Memories

If memories were..

What if memories were like a flame, eveutally the wither and die out, only leaving ashes behind.
What if every great moment you share or had was gone in five years time.
What if, what seemed to mean everything suddenly meant nothing at all.
What if the one memory you swore you'd never forget went away and didnt come back again, left alone and forgotten.

What would you do if your memories were slowing dieing out and all you had left were another person opinion of what happened that day.
What would you do, how would you feel if the memory of someone you loved began to slowly fade.
What would you say, how would you act if you knew it wasnt coming back.
What would you do to make everything be the same and for that one memory to come back.

How would you act if you forgot your favourite memory.
How would you feel if you forgot the comforting words, the smell of the air, and the sweet sounds.
How would you cope if you lost the memory you loved the memory you inspired to one day be.

What would you do if memories were like flames, in the moment the feel like they could last forever, high up in the sky leaving an impact on earth, but eventually die out only leaving behind its remains..

frrrreaking out

exams next week- heaps stress and i know i have to study but i just seem to have zero motivation. arrgh.

a feeling

heelllo to a new feeling. i feeling of happiness and never ending thoughts.
a feeling, a hope, a dream that something good is finally gonna happen.